esmemouseysheformeHello there – Bet you all thought this mouse was loss . Well she has been for several months. I’ve been lost in some bad depression that was brought on by some family problems.

Family problems that we have been dealing with since July. One very major problem with our youngest son. This stage of the problem comes to an end this Friday. Since you are all close to me. I will tell you some about it. Not all the facts -just some of them. Six years ago he was placed on probation for internet porn. Yes – they will and do get you for that. He made the mistake of taking his computer in to be repair and the repair man told him it was fried. However- he went looking on his computer an found porn-turned him. And he was charged. He kept telling us these past years he was behaving. However- he was violated in July. Since then he has been waiting for sentencing for prison. As of my writing he is looking at 20 years with 10 years probation.

Not sure what he will get this Friday. All I know is since July – my life has turned upside down. I have been loss  – in a deep depression. Not only have I had to deal with my son- but I almost lost my older brother in October. Then hubby had to surgery in Sept. I had back surgery in November .

They say when it rains it pours. I agree with the saying. I know that I have let a lot of people down these past months. For that I apologize. I am now on new med’s and doing my best to fight this dark demon.

Depression is something that is not seen. A person will look fine – will tell you they are fine. However- we are fighting every moment of every day to just to handle daily things. Things that you take for granted. It takes all I can do at times to get up in the morning- cook or clean let alone go out in public. Or even socialize. All I ask is that you please bare with me just a little bit longer. I promise the mouse will back and she will stronger than ever.




  1. Miss Lost Mouse —- Alison emailed me to visit your page and read your post. First, I want to say that you are not alone. We are a community here, all be it, we have our rough times together, but when one of us is down – we do rally to do what we can!

    I am very sorry for your plight and do understand completely the trial and tribulations a child can impose on his/her mother. All three of my children were/are heroin addicts and my youngest daughter is on Methadone but still abusing drugs (while selling her body in exchange) But enough about that and more about you. I just wanted you to know that I can empathize with you.

    You are on the right course and you are very strong to have shared your story and fears. This is the first step in battling the demons of depression. Talk it out…keep talking it out – the more you expel these demons from your soul – the more room there is for happiness and completeness.

    Do something for yourself – something that makes you forget (even for a short time) your troubles.

    I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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  2. Hi Mouse
    You don’t know me but I’m a friend of Alison and a fellow blogger. So sorry to hear of all the trauma you have been going through. I also suffer from depression so have a vague inkling of where you are coming from. While it’s easy to hide away from the world sometimes it helps to know there are people out there who care and will give you a friendly *wave*. Keep kicking ass and feel free to get in touch if you want to rant, vent, chat etc .. I will always listen.
    Take care xoxoxo

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  3. Oh, Darlene, my heart goes out to you. I know all about depression – but to also have to go through your son’s problems and then the death of your brother, your husband’s illness and your back surgery, you must have had such a tough time keeping it together.

    Keeping your mind occupied will help. Take loads of Vitamin C (that’s been clinically proven to ease depression. Take a zinc tablet each day, too. Go for brisk walks or some sort of exercise (that really does help). Have little treats to look forward to during the day. Watch comedy movies. do kind things for others. And there’s nothing better than losing yourself in a good book. It takes you out of your life in into another, even for just a short time.

    Take care, Darlene, and I wish you the best of luck!! Kick ass!!! xx

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    • Alison..it has been very hard to say the least. It has taken me quite a while to get my mind back in the right place. I didn’t feel even doing anything – even reading a good book. And believe this mouse I live to read. I feel like I have let my authors down this past yr . I had several reviews and post that I was to do .All any one wanted to know was it gonna be posted. Never what happened to me. I left fb for months and no one even was wondering why. See, if I was to disappear no one would miss me .My blog used to make me happy . Now I getting back into the flow of it and hoping for my happiness to return. I think it will, just gonna take some time . Thank you ever so much for your kind words . It really met a lot to me. ❤ And I plan on kicking a whole bunch of ass !!! lol xxxx

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      • “I plan on kicking on kicking a whole bunch of ass!!” You sound like Donald!

        Way to go, girl! You’ve fallen off your horse now it’s time you climb back on. Keep your brain OCCUPIED. Try not to think of yourself, or what you have done wrong, or what you could have done better. Guilt doesn’t help. Concentrate on good things you have achieved.

        You and I have low self-esteem. That’s part of the depression. Well, I’m going to build it up – HIGH. You and me, both. How about it?

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      • I realize it that it has been over a year since the lost mouse has written or responded. Yes- I do have low self-esteem. very low indeed. It does not take much to knock me down. Or even bully me into doing into what you want me to do. The mouse it seems gets lost at times very easy. But she is trying to find her way- You will notice that this year I have posted a little more so far than last year. Don’t give up on the mouse. It might take me awhile but hopeful one day I will get there again. xxxx


      • Hi Darlene,
        I am Linda (lindasbookobsession.blog/) also at wordpress. I just followed you. I just started this blog and I consider it a work in progress. Reading is my hobby, and is my escape. I took a nasty fall while visiting a friend, and while looking at her, missed a step and fell down a flight of concrete steps in October. I was very lucky, I wasn’t killed, but my whole left leg had alot of damage. SInce I needed a knee replacement in the other knee, I am just about getting around. (look where you are going) I know how you are feeling, because I have alot going on in my life with my family. I joined a blog for bloggers and committed to reading 20 books. Whew!!Some of the authors are very pushy. If I feel this is a job, it won’t be pleasure. I would love to read your blogs, Maybe just read a book that you want, and go slowly. Read for you!!
        I am also a top reader at Netgalley, and some publishers have sent me books without my asking. Maybe I should have just left that at that.
        Anyway, I also get very down, with certainly good reason. I see you have your plate full. More than full!!You have to take care of yourself first. Just take it one day at a time(that’s how I have to think) and try to prioritize what is good for you. I don’t want to be an “afterthought” in my families” life, so I have to think of myself first. My e-mail is lzagon@yahoo.com. and I hope that you have some sunshine days ahead!!Warmest regards, Linda

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